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MY HEART'S HAVEN
A storm could
darken and thrash the skies
The sun could
wither and scorch the earth.
Yet, in the oasis of
your mesmerizing eyes,
that incandescent smile,
and your warm hands enveloping mine,
I feel safe.
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bring me along when you leave for that world, baby
It has been a while. But suddenly, I feel this urge to write, to say to anyone, or maybe even no one at all, about how I feel deep inside.
I feel like shit, like there's something choking me, like there's this dark void in my stomach, like my tears are trying to force their way out while I work to keep them in, like my heart is beating faster than I can handle.
I like him, I really do, and it has been a long while since I felt this way. I've kept myself away from relationships for so long and formed this wall around me because I didn't want to get hurt.
And now, despite liking you, I hate how vulnerable it leaves me. I hate how I'm giving you a chance to possibly hurt me. I hate how I'm depending on you; someone other than myself.
I'm afraid to trust. I'm afraid to love. And as much as I want to get over this psychological barrier, it's killing me. Yet, it kills me too when I let this barrier strip my right to happiness.
Either way, I'm dying inside while I fight myself.
steal my soul; 10:12 PM
